| Saturday, February 27, 2010 |
| I have taken everything for granted. It's all about me. It has nothing to do with you. I knew all this while I'm in no position to hope and I shouldn't have. I couldn't help but try my best not to wish or hope. How bad am I to have forgotten my believes. "No hope, no disappointment" I hate disappointments. It makes me feel shitty, useless. I am a person who couldn't get over disappointments easily. I hoped that you'll be happy. The only achievement in this r/s for me is that night at the beach. It was the most memorable thing for me and it is for you. But as years passed, I just couldn't do the same. It might not meant anything for you, but the disappointment accumulated in me. I failed so many times but I have to say, I have not given up even till this day. Only that I realised today, I took too long to make this happen. I have failed again. I am always in doubt that I'm the one for you. Things between us always proved me right. I wanted to give up. Not to stop loving you, but to give you hopes. Hopes that I'm the one for you. I know exactly how disappointments hurt. I do not wish the same for you. But I was touched. You gave me hope instead, that night, on the street. How stupid I am, to wish for things. Even for birthdays, I dare not wish. All I can is to pray for health and wealth. That is why, I do not believe in fairy-tales. I dislike fairy-tales. It makes me have bad thoughts. Thoughts to hope for something similar. How pathetic. I hoped for love. It's the worst thing it can be. It could've come naturally. I was so naive when I was 17. My heart aches every second when I thought of love. Sleeping doesn't help to calm the heart. Unlike physical pain, I realised. I knew from the start, we are of different worlds. You have high hopes, very ambitious. I am the exact opposite with you. Is "the opposite attracts" an excuse for us to be together? Or is it just to feel better for me to fall in love with you. It has been the question I'm always asking myself. Another question I've always been asking myself. What do I have, to give for love? Time? Care? Be initiative? I guess its the only "physical" thing which I can provide but yet I've failed again. Maybe things just dint turn out the way for me because of the right time. "天時,地利,人和" How stupid am I to even think that my luck has started to improve yesterday morning when everything seems smooth for me. Just because of a stupid bus came on time for me. I have yet again forgotten about my believe. "There is always a balance in everything" I bet you didn't realise that I felt hurt when you used me as a topic to bet on. Do you even give me a slightest respect with your friends? So now you can go around telling them you lost a bet because of me. And why is it? Because I do not have initiative. I'm disappointed this time round not because of hope. It's you.
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| Tuesday, January 27, 2009 |
 My cutie pie, Frosty wishing everyone a Happy Lunar New Year! Cheers. =D
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| Sunday, January 25, 2009 |
| Thats's Wink wink, the dog pornstar. Our advance reunion dinner was on 23rd Jan which was also my cousin, Jolyn 20th Bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Best wishes for her and stay pretty.
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| Tuesday, January 20, 2009 |
| Alrighty im getting older. Nth to be proud of. Wasnt a good bday to begin with. My poor frosty was down with diarrhoea and vomiting. Brought her to the vet early in the morning and have to leave her there for drip. Came back home and started off spring cleaning. Shifted hell lotsa stuffs im so drained after that. Got a call from the vet ard 7.40 and ask for me to fetch her at 8. Finally got her home and everything seems fine. She really scared the fuck outta me seeing her walking round the house like a zombie last night really reminds me of my cousin's previous dog Kiki. I guess its time for me to go praying again as I definitely felt that things aint going smoothly this new yr. Wish me more luck. Btw, its the 1st time i recieved a bday gift from my brother. Guess what, its a laptop cooling pad. LOL @ him cos obviously he wanted to get the cooling pad he lent me back! And the funniest thing is I dint borrow from him at all he forced me to take it. At least there's something cracked me up today. Thanks John.
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| Sunday, January 11, 2009 |
  Went to The Line @ the Shangri-La Hotel ytd noon for lunch. Been almost 2 yr since i last stepped in. Nth much has changed.       Love the Tiffany Blue set!  Getting all so excited to start off with the picking of the foods. And we chose our main course to start off with the seafood!  Freshest and the best I've tasted so far.  Salmon's one of my fave too!  They have very nice Siu Mai as well.  Not forgetting to order the best strawberry smoothies I've ordered 2 yrs ago. Super duper quenching you can finish it like a shot!     Cheese cake. Aint as nice as we tot.  Desserts are alright, but the strawberry ice-cream is still my love. Tot I was back to a kid in love with ice-cream for a moment. It looks just so nice.   I'm satisfied. Was damn full to even smile properly. >.<  Love the outside view. Having a chill after the food. Most worthy places to have great seafood. Fully recommended.
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| Thursday, January 08, 2009 |
| Damn power advertisement. Really take my hat off you lenovo. Thou somehow the storyline is modified from somewhere else, its still a very nice try. Click HERE to view the video. *P/S: **Spoiler** The part when she realised something is not right kinda gave me the creeps. Labels: iShare
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| Monday, January 05, 2009 |
| Finally my 1st step out for jogging! A new work day to start off with my one of my new yr resolution. Cut the fats, work the abs! My new motto. Sif but still, need some self-motivation for everything you do right? Managed to complete 2.4km jog thou theres 4-5 sec rest-brisk-walking. Last jogged was b4 enlistment OK! Hmmm.. That is like Aug'07-ish? Now prawn got influenced too but kept denying it. Prawn's starting tml but its me who started it just now 9.30pm~! SO ITS PRAWN COPYING ME! =P So out-of-nowhere, just wanna shout it out here. heh. Anyway, hope there wont be much aching tml.
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